Monday, March 19, 2012


So I am afraid to step on a scale this week. Last week went so well! And my real life is also going along like clockwork. And then on Sunday I read this and kind of just, well, I don't know. It's truly awful.
I knew her. She went to my high school. She was the same age as my sister. We were in Pony Club together and rode in the same lessons for years. She was such a nice person. A single mom the 5 year old twin boys. It's such a tragedy.

I also knew him. I babysat him for years. I watched him grow up. He had a rough upbringing, but still that is no excuse for such terrible behaviour.

Bah. Just Bah. And humbug too.

So I have been rolling this around in my head, trying to make sense of it, and eating more than I should be.

Tomorrow is a new day, and I will start fresh. But tonight? Please pass the chips.


  1. Oh Breanna, I am so sorry. I know how thrown I was when Adam died and I didn't even really know him. It's hard to care about eating right and exercising when you're slapped in the face with the understanding that life is short. Kiss your babies!

  2. Breanna, I know how you feel. Not too long ago a former co-worker of mine died suddenly from a clot at age 24. I worked with him for years at Best Buy and it was just so upsetting that he was such a good person and why did this have to happen. It really got me down for a long time. The best thing to do is not beat yourself up about your diet-and I think it is great you avoided the scale. For me working out really helped with my feelings and if you haven't already, go for a run. You will feel so much better. Everyone has those days when the world just falls apart. I had one a couple weeks ago where I just ripped off all my nails and ate everything in sight, although I am not 100% sure what the root cause was. I felt so terrible but in the grand scheme of things it will amount to nothing. Keep up the good work Breanna and allow yourself to be sad and in time it will pass. Sorry to hear about your loss it is always tremendously difficult to be faced with my own mortality but the great thing is this is where religion steps in. :)

  3. This is awful. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. A guy I used to take the bus with in high school was murdered last year - run over and killed on purpose. It's a really hard thing to deal with, the senselessness of careless or callous people ruining other people's lives. Hopefully you can channel your grief into love and appreciation for your closeness with your own family :)

  4. Awe. I am so sorry to hear this ! Grieving really seems to takes over how we eat and exercise and even function. Two separate really really nice guys I knew passed away at separate times after high school. One from heart problems while driving a go kart and the other a high ranked tractor trailer driver who was driving an atv and hit a bump and flew into sharp rocks. It is all really too bad and makes you re-evaluate how you spend your days and how you should cherish time with your loved ones.

    Lots of hugs and kisses. !